8.31.2009

Corollaries...


Yesterday we arrived at the Outer Banks for a few days of fun at the edge of the Atlantic Ocean.  We did, fortunately, manage to amuse ourselves in the surf shortly after our arrival.

He rode the waves, and so did his sister.

Today the rain began before sunrise, and will continue all day long.

8.28.2009

sopa de caracol

For some reason, the sepia tones seem to slow down the snails' movements even more.



(sn)ailments...


All of Washington D.C. moves more slowly in August. Traffic is tolerable. Throngs of tourists no longer dominate the open spaces.

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For now, I enjoy the view from my perch. In a fews weeks it will all transform itself back to the usual unruly urbanities that define this place.


I should begin to pick up my pace...maybe later on....

8.27.2009

bee li(n)es...


The thought of observing bees prowling about their pollen fields had never occurred to me, until one day this summer. Yes, I've taken snapshots of bees before, but this was different. This bee and its comrades actually remained calm in my presence. I had time to observe, and pay attention to detail through the lens. This side glance at a long-faced Bavarian drone was one of my first bee pictures that day. And, after taking hundreds of bee pics within a few days, it remains my favorite.

I have no idea "how" a bee sees. I just know it had to have seen me, and decided not to fly away (or at least did not react by fleeing). I was able to encroach within three inches of its stare, yet did not feel like I was trespassing. Perhaps it was satiated, perhaps it was curious. The bee was able to discern, or at least to categorize me and/or my presence as a non-threat. I like to think that it just didn't care.  Photographing, or "making a picture," is after all an act of appropriation. As Susan Sontag once remarked in her work On Photography, "There is an aggression implicit in every use of the camera."  I'm delighted that this bee was unaware of Sontag's pronouncement.

8.26.2009

acephalous redress...


I have yet to encounter a person that can loose his or her head (figuratively, that is) and remain poised, elegant, and calm. These mannequins are a lesson in civility, and should be required props at every politician's town hall meeting on the proposed health care legislation. Media footage of outbursts and indignations, some feigned, many purchased, and others channeled repercussions of misinformation, or misanthropic harmonies...make me sad.


Voice your opinion...sure, but spare us the apoplectic hysteria and the meanness. It may be too ironic that the recent uproar shadowing Government's involvement in health care reform has produced such crisp and contrasting radiographs. These transparent films are the thin veneer separating civilization and barbarism, and it saddens me. Viral rage should be the best argument for health care reform.


[The photographs presented with this post were taken at this year's Artomatic exhibit in Washington DC.]

8.25.2009

on the redemptive aspects of photography...


An android, a replicant to be exact, uttered his final words in the rain. Then he died. Before that moment, he delivered a powerful monologue recounting remarkable memories, memories that would soon be lost in time...like tears in the rain. Decades after first viewing this film, I can picture the scene from the 1982 film Bladerunner, without much effort. Later, years later, I realized my viewing of that cinematic reincarnation of loss...of the profound and tragic awareness of an inevitable loss...roused an irrational fascination with nostalgia.  Some of us, those afflicted with an irredeemable and recurring sense of longing learned to repress, ignore, deny, or cope with this sentiment.  Others learned to ventilate their vapors through more artistic performances...writing, painting, sculpting, dance.

I had redirected my wistfulness.  My circumnavigations led me through graduate school, dark continents, ancient ruins, spectacle, ritual, pyramids, anthropophagies, sacrifice...other peoples' memories of otherness, ethnographies, and other post-colonial laments...other attempts to preserve memories in time, before they were lost, like tears in the rain, or a tourist in a marketplace, a whirling dervish in his own centripetal motion, or a parchment in a desert cave. In the end, traveling through the terrain of anthropology, taught me how to see, and somewhere along the journey I also lost interest in the discipline's nostalgia for authenticity, abstraction and itself.  I finished that journey, and began a life as an ethnographer in exile.

Anthropology's most ceremonious accomplishment...the substance that draws collegiate neophytes into those first-year university courses, is the demystification of the exotic, the translation of the extraordinary into the ordinary.  The discipline thrives on unraveling layers of behavior, and custom, and in the end revels in revelations of resonance and similarity.  I traveled and wrote, and documented.  But, I was interested in transforming the ordinary into the extraordinary.  All along I had been pining against the grain, and I didn't even know it.

A decade and a year into my exile, my wife was diagnosed with cancer.  It was her second journey through the metastatic labyrinth, and in order to negotiate this repetition I decided to photograph, blog, document and rant my way through it.  I wanted to render extraordinary the banality of lab tests, diagnosis, surgeries, chemotherapy, exhaustion, and fear.

I fell under the spell, and photography soon became my occultist passion, learning how to hide the mundane in images exorcised from the everyday.  And before you smirk, let me assure you that I'm not so naive as to believe or pretend to believe that photographic images render a more viable, transparent, moral or sanitized reality.  However, I am optimistic that framing a moment, capturing an emotion, domesticating color and scale, light and perspective, can push away those moments of death where experience and memory are lost like tears in the rain.

If you share, or merely sympathize with my delusions,  I invite you to return and record your own impressions, as I photograph, comment, and explore the borders between things.